Thursday, August 30, 2012


  I know that i promised you guys the recital videos , so here they are, finally!!! Thanks again to my friend Windy for making my dream come true :)
this is my class :) i got to dance with a lot of beautiful young ladies and yep i was the only adult

This was our Mom's dance i am the one to the left in the white dress and blonde wig :)

This is my awesome boy breakdancing with the Arrive 2 defy crew, he has red shorts, blue shirt and retro knee socks, he was amazing!!!

This was my beatiful  lil girl's dance she is the very serious elephant in the middle beginning at 3:13

Both of my babies did amazing, i was so proud of them!!!

My summer has been incredible, i finally made it to Fenway Park in Boston to watch the Braves stomp the Red Sox :) that made me happy. And even though we spent a good hour or so huddled under ponchos in the rain near the hotdog stands, i was literally just thrilled to be there and see it, so i totally checked that off of my bucket Boston was absolutely incredible, i would love to live there someday, it has the history of Philadelphia and DC and all of the charm of Savannah. Simply amazing, I got to see reenactors dressed in civil war garb, was asked to join a chess game by a lovely older man, saw Paul Revere's grave and met  a patriot having beer with a redcoat....and they were so delightful to talk to. I could go on and on about how much fun i had but don't want to bore

I have also gotte to see the Legwarmers play this summer and it was fabulous to go with my girls and dress up in my 80's finest and dance my ass we are gonna do the hustle in feathered hair and disco dresses, so bring on the Right on Band.....i am so excited about  all of this. (yes i know i a a lil bit of a dork, but who cares :) 

Now to the main reason i am writing tonight......i am at such a difficult crossroads in my life. And my future seems so wide open and scary and i really can not decide what to do. Next week i will send both of my babies to school, ( just discussing my baby going to kindergarten is a whole other post for later) in a way the freedom excites me....but i really do not know what to do with myself. I am no longer qualified for any sort of job , its been 10 yrs since i have done anything other than odd painting jobs or cleaning.....i had wanted to go to the Paul Mitchell School for hair design, i just loved the campus and the staff, it looked like a completely amazing place to learn......but it would put a lot of financial strain on my now should i look into other hair programs or something different entirely, i just do not know what directon to go because there are just so many options (and autistics like are not good at deciding when the options are endless) plus i just do not have any idea what sort of talents i have anymore.....i guess i need one of those antiquated career placement quizzes, lol. But just thinking about all of this makes my head spin and then i shut down in frustration....i just keep hoping for a sign that will point me in the right please God any sort of sign would help. 

But anyways thank you for listening to the endless stream of thoughts i couldn't turn off tonight....and i hope i entertained you with my (ahem, lovely) dancing, lol.............