Sooooo.......

  I know that i promised you guys the recital videos , so here they are, finally!!! Thanks again to my friend Windy for making my dream come true :)

this is my class :) i got to dance with a lot of beautiful young ladies and yep i was the only adult

                                          

This was our Mom's dance i am the one to the left in the white dress and blonde wig :)

                                           

This is my awesome boy breakdancing with the Arrive 2 defy crew, he has red shorts, blue shirt and retro knee socks, he was amazing!!!

                                          

This was my beatiful  lil girl's dance she is the very serious elephant in the middle beginning at 3:13

Both of my babies did amazing, i was so proud of them!!!

My summer has been incredible, i finally made it to Fenway Park in Boston to watch the Braves stomp the Red Sox :) that made me happy. And even though we spent a good hour or so huddled under ponchos in the rain near the hotdog stands, i was literally just thrilled to be there and see it, so i totally checked that off of my bucket list.....plus Boston was absolutely incredible, i would love to live there someday, it has the history of Philadelphia and DC and all of the charm of Savannah. Simply amazing, I got to see reenactors dressed in civil war garb, was asked to join a chess game by a lovely older man, saw Paul Revere's grave and met  a patriot having beer with a redcoat....and they were so delightful to talk to. I could go on and on about how much fun i had but don't want to bore anyone....lol

I have also gotte to see the Legwarmers play this summer and it was fabulous to go with my girls and dress up in my 80's finest and dance my ass off.....next we are gonna do the hustle in feathered hair and disco dresses, so bring on the Right on Band.....i am so excited about  all of this. (yes i know i a a lil bit of a dork, but who cares :) 

Now to the main reason i am writing tonight......i am at such a difficult crossroads in my life. And my future seems so wide open and scary and i really can not decide what to do. Next week i will send both of my babies to school, ( just discussing my baby going to kindergarten is a whole other post for later) in a way the freedom excites me....but i really do not know what to do with myself. I am no longer qualified for any sort of job , its been 10 yrs since i have done anything other than odd painting jobs or cleaning.....i had wanted to go to the Paul Mitchell School for hair design, i just loved the campus and the staff, it looked like a completely amazing place to learn......but it would put a lot of financial strain on my family......so now should i look into other hair programs or something different entirely, i just do not know what directon to go because there are just so many options (and autistics like are not good at deciding when the options are endless) plus i just do not have any idea what sort of talents i have anymore.....i guess i need one of those antiquated career placement quizzes, lol. But just thinking about all of this makes my head spin and then i shut down in frustration....i just keep hoping for a sign that will point me in the right way......so please God any sort of sign would help. 

But anyways thank you for listening to the endless stream of thoughts i couldn't turn off tonight....and i hope i entertained you with my (ahem, lovely) dancing, lol.............

another one bites the dust....

I am so excited. Today I checked another thing off my bucket list! And while it is a silly thing to have on there as I have been told, I am proud of myself none the less, LOL. I taught myself how to wolf whistle. And while I can not do it everytime yet, I have done it at least 10 times so I think it deserves to be checked off now.

This has been a fun summer for me as I have checked 2 things off in a short amount of time. The first one was learning to knit, and while I am not very good at it (considering I am now on my 3rd attempt at the same blanket) I now know how to do it.

Most of the things on my bucket list are small achievable goals....I like to be able to say I checked something off and these give me something to do in between the really big goals , like cliff jumping in Africa over the zambezi river gorge. As really who has tons of oppurtunities to check those huge things off our lists often.

My list was a lot smaller before my trip to Africa. But after making a trip like that and having so much fun, I thought of so many other things I still wanted to do. And while cliff jumping may be hard to top, I now have the courage to try almost anything. And am looking forward to topping the thrill of that jump.

That trip also made me realise that I really want to see the rest of the world while I am still young enough to enjoy it and remember it. I want my kids to have a life full of adventure. I want a life full of adventure too. When I die I want to say, and believe that I truly lived. And really deployments are the best time to work on your bucket list....

And in case you wondering here are a few things on my list:

• Learn to do a headstand
• see the pyramids in Egypt
• learn to surf
• see Australia
• learn to crochet
• make a dress all by myself
• learn to speak French
• master the art of eyeliner application
• learn to walk in heels (and not look like a man in drag)
• go skydiving
• see the pacific ocean
• swim with dolphins or maybe sharks, lol
• get kissed at the top of the Eiffel Tower
• learn to paint like picasso
• learn to rock climb
• see Morocco
• ride on a camel
• celebrate my 50th wedding anniversary
• take a fabulous cross country adventure down route 66
• learn ballet
• drive a Race car
• ride a burrow into the Grand Canyon

These are just some of mine....I am always adding more it seems. My goal is to never stop growing or learning. And to step outside my comfort zone as much as possible. But for now I am happy just finally learning that silly whistle. LOL. Hopefully by the time I ever reach NY City I will be able to hail a cab with it Carrie Bradshaw style :)

Ok, I am ready to find that next item I can check off....but until then I am just happy i finally figured out that whistle. LOL.